Different yet the same.

I've been reflecting a lot these days. Not anymore about myself but just everything around me. A lot has been happening recently both in school and at home. The workload is more than ever and just family conflicts happening all at the same time.

I used to just overlook at things concerning family. I do care about it but I just don't take it too personally. I will tell myself that this period will not last and the problem will be solved, like always. But ever since, I've been in a relationship with Loic, my perspective of family changed. I'm more concern about it now than I used to in the past. And I kind of not like this feeling cos I know that I am in a way becoming more dependent on the fact that I have a family to depend on and that nothing will happen to this family of mine.

It scares me sometimes to know that after all these years, I've always been in my little bubble and all I can think about is myself. Everything has to go my way and if it doesn't... it's bad. I can't believe I was that selfish. Now, all I want is to get next week over and done with to get my priorities straight and hopefully, to have the conflict solved peacefully :)

On a happy note, I got myself a new phone and I'm the happiest girl in the world of 2011 :D Been smiling and giving happy 'eeee' sounds haha Ok, I'm just happy. At least I'm 20% more motivated to do well for my MST. Thanks MUM <3