I still remember the very first time I had my eyes on you. You're just like the others whom I crushed on. But everything changed after she told you about the conversation we had about you. I didn't plan to fall in love with you, and I doubt if you planned on falling in love with me. It just happens. Everything was plain awkward when we first talked to each other. The loud chatters, smell of food lingering around us and just some awkward eye contact we had with one another in the school canteen. That was officially the first conversation we had. All eyes were on us, well mostly you because I think everyone must be wondering what were you up to sitting and conversing with a senior. I was feeling very shy about giving eye contact with you cos, really, your eyes just sparkles brightly and I was shy with mine meeting with it. But all I know was when I'm with you, I act differently but in a good way.

Time passed..my smart phone became my second best friend. It was and still is a medium for me to communicate with you all day and night. I like messaging you as it was a virtual place I felt comfortable in conversing with you because I would always feel shy to look you in the eye. Moreover, you wouldn't get to see me when I'm shy and it is another reason for me to not have eye contact with you because if not, I would blush just by looking at those big, bright eyes of yours that never fail to sparkle since day 1. My feelings for you grew more and more as days pass but I didn't plan to fall in love with you as mentioned because at that point of time I was still in a mess handling some other love issue with some other guy. You didn't know about it, then.

Slowly however, my feelings began to grow deeper. But I was still in a dilemma.. I could still vividly remember the first time you hugged me when we were both surrounded by water, trees and just more trees. I swear it was the very first time I hugged someone who didn't mean anything to me, then, and it felt so surreal cos it was beyond my wildest imagination that I would or should I say could actually hug you. It felt good and for the first time, I felt loved. The feeling was just indescribable. That was also the first ever time I spent the whole day with someone whom I just knew. The bus ride to the beach and the stroll we took. That day was just extra special because there were just really many "first things" done with you. The first hug. The first time not showering for the morning. The first thonning session. The first time sleeping on your ever muscular shoulder. Last but not least, the first time you held my hands while we stroll on the beach. I felt extra special on that very day. However, amusingly, our status : friendship.

It was then on that selfsame day, 18 March 2009 at about 2 plus in Kfc Cineleisure, you indirectly popped the question. You held my hands, if I'm not wrong, when you asked me. With popcorn chicken and super sized Mountain Dew as our witness. I wasn't surprised at all cos dearest best friend help prepare me mentally hours before I met up with you haha and I even tried my best to look lost when you told me how you felt first before popping the question. But that was one part of how I was feeling cos I was also feeling shy, like always and I was blushing that I could feel all the blood gushing through my cheeks although I was mentally prepared. I think it was as red as a baboon butt. Yes, that was how much I was blushing. However, I managed to calm myself down and answer it. On the other hand, it was the term 'like' used when you first popped the question, it wasn't love. I did not even realize the difference between the two cos all I know was both had the same meaning, then.

More months together, anniversaries celebrated on every 19th,though, and just a whole lot of spending time together brought us closer. Soon, I realize with you I smile more and laugh more. I don't have to pretend that everything is okay when it's really not. With you, I can drop the fake smile and put on a real one. I don't feel alone when I'm with you. Instead, I feel safe and loved. The one thing I love about you, yes love not like, since day 1 was that you are easy to talk to and you listen to me. I don't have to worry about holding back with you. I don't feel self conscious. Also, whenever I was feeling very insecure about myself, which I always do, you would be there to stop me from feeling that way. But what you do best is cheering me up whenever I'm down and your hugs does wonders.

After all that we've been through, we finally fell in love. Yes. Love. We both knew we were in love with one another, something rare and beautiful was created. We even admitted to falling in love more than once throughout this relationship. Times changed, we changed together with it. It is not only rainbows and butterflies throughout this relationship, fights were and still is obviously inevitable. But its compromise that moves us along.

Thus, all I want to bring forward to you now is that I would not want to stop falling in love with you because you're that one person who shows you really do care and you accept me for who I am. My flaws, negative thoughts and just everything about me. You're the guy that would look me in the eyes and tell me you love me and mean it. I'll never forget a single moment we spent together as it is seared in my memory. Last but not least, I really appreciate your company because with you I'm different. With you, I'm happy :')

HAPPY 2 YEARS BABY! I love you with all my heart :)