my mine's clouding up with nothing else but negative thoughts. i'm just not good enough for anything. i hate this negatively mixed feeling i'm experiencing now. maybe it just got the 'best' of me. why did i even choose it in the first place? regret is starting to crawl in, even without me experiencing the whole 2 years of it. i guess i need to see the exciting part of it and the drive to keep me going. but i'm just not hungry enough for it as much as i want to. Dear God, please guide me through.