I broke the record for the first time. It has been 1 yr but eventually I made a rash decision. Although it was only 4 days, I really am thankful. I know its going to be hard. I shouldn't have accepted cause I know it'll turn out this way. I have been lying to myself so far, not being truthful about what I say. I'm just not ready for it. I really am sorry if it has to end this way. I would rather end this now than drag till it'll be hard to let go. I know that one day you'll find the right one. I hope, I pray :)


I know you readers must be going what the hell is she talking about. Well, don't worry it has nothing to do with you. It's just something I learn for the past few days. It's ok if you don't get it because as quoted by Effa ," you're there la.. you're there.." haha (in side joke)


Work is very painful. I didn't know it was going to get this tough. But I'm going to survive, I have got to :) Thanks Effa and Kuzer for your advice. ILY \m/